(Not a break up post, btw.I could see how it would sound that way, lol. I’m just ranting my ass off because this month has been terrible. Just god awful. Don’t read, seriously lol. You’ll hate me for being an emo fuck.)
Life kicked my fucking ass this whole month. I lost almost everything that I tried hard for. All the things I set my mind too and stressed over have all been ripped out from under me. I feel so alone and stuck all the time. I always tried not to count on people…or believe in them. But I let my guard down and I believed this one time…I believed. I really did. I was violently dropped on my ass. I was so sorrily mistaken to believe. It kills me that now, after all that stress and crying and trying it turns out it was for nothing. All that fucking time and all that fucking effort. It was all a waste! All of it!
Now what? Huh? What happens now? You’re in the same god damn place you were before, completely untouched. While I, I get to sit here and rot. You lost nothing! That’s why it was so easy for you to give up on! You don’t care. You just want to take the fucking easy route even if it means leaving me in the god damn dust. That’s all you want. You get everything so easy. So why should you care? Everything comes so fucking easy to you and yeah, yeah I’m fucking envious. Jealous. Of course I am! I have nothing and you have it all still. I love you, but I am so disgusted and I feel so let down. SO let down. That’s all I feel.
Maybe it was wrong of me to put all my hopes and dreams on you, sure. It was. I’ll admit that. But you shouldn’t have humored me if this wasn’t something you wanted. So fuck you for that. And fuck you for letting me fall on my ass and leaving me here.
